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Name: anthony
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Waco
Birthday: 10/7/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: women, sports, music,
Expertise: tennis and soccer, drums,
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  antwan1007
Member Since:
8/20/2005
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| so boy oh boy oh boy oh boy...
my lil nephew dallas says that all the time... i think he picked it up from me... i really want to be a dad... in a totally not creepy sort of way... there are just some kids out there that make me want to have a family... or better... they make me look forward to having a family... my nephews are definitely one of those just sooo frickin adorable kids... the other day i was playing with the lil neph jackson and there was rather large scorpion... well without thinking i clenched my right hand into a fist and with all the strength in my right arm swung down and slammed to scorpion into the ground... such force that i caused an earthquake in china.... well for one thing... that is not the smartest way to kill a scorpion... and b... the scorpion was plastic... now plastic scorpions are not the best toy to play with... but if it were a real scorpion it would have had a pretty painful death... and my right fist would have been hurtin a lot... well that was just a fun story... the is this little girl at my pool named helen... she is really extremely hyper active... but soo adorable... she is about 2years old and doesnt know how to swim yet runs like the wind to the deep end of the pool every time she comes... it is quite humorous... then i get off the stand and go get her smiling face out of the water... she calls me poppi... makes me look forward to being a dad...
one of the coolest feeling... or satisfactory feeling... nowadays is the knowledge that i make my parents proud... i got my wisdom teeth pulled the other day (monday) and chose probably the less wise but definitely more badass route of going about it... i chose local anesthesia with some sort of gas... i was awake during the surgery and felt a little bit of pain during it... but most of the pain came after it... like right now i hurt actually... well my dad decided to stay and watch the surgery... and later that night my mom told me that my dad felt really bad... he watched some man cut up his son... even though it was for the best... he still felt bad.... my father and i have had, not a complicated relationship, but also not a normal one... ever since october my dad and i have been able to show love to each other more fluently that we ever had... i see so much of myself in him... and i know he sees himself in me... and that makes me extremely happy... knowing that out of all the crap that i have done... that somehow i have made my father proud...I think that God is really the same way... the same thought process maybe...
My left cheek is really swollen... it looks funny... love you all
tony- also my dad's nickname... makes me happy | | |
| www.kylesfilm.com
I really haven't been open to talk about this in depth to anyone.
i mean i have had plenty of conversations recalling the day and also
the feelings of the morning. this is most defnately something
that i can look back upon and know that its impact will be molding me
for a long long time. i experienced this tragedy in different way
than most... therefore am also grieving in a different way as
well. ever since that day, i look at life, those who i love with
an such an appreciation. but it didnt stop there....
everyone. i want to live love and every encounter with another
person is an opportunity to. anytime another person needs help,
whether the help is physical, spiritual, or emotional... if i am not
willing to give everything that i've got for this person then am i
living love? one should try to take the focus of christianity off
of just going to church for yourself? selfish... isn't loving and
caring for those who need it the most, worth something? maybe
that should be more of what defines christians or christianity.
wasnt that jesus' legacy? i cannever shake the thought that i was powerless to save kyle. my point of brokeness..
my family came up the day it happened. my dad, my mom, my sister
alyssa, and my brother austin. there is so much i would love for
my younger siblings to understand. their relationship with God is
in it's purest form with their love for other people. therefore
the relationships that they have now are huge, any relationship that
one has is huge. i love my family more than anything in the
world. God is in that love...
God is in all love. i love my friends, and would give my life for
any of them in a second. friends that i have known forever.
newly made friends.
my older sister... my 2 nephews dallas and jackson... my god i love you guys.
haha i love you all... i'm weird
lyssa- i love you. always been there for you... and just bc you
move away to that hellhole of a school Tech (haha just kdding... but
not really) doesnt mean that you are distancing yourself from me and
adrienne... just from mom and dad ;).... this summer we all are
going to hang out like none other...
austin- your are the man... you have always been the man... you're amazing at basketball. totally better than i was at your age.
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| schoolwork... will blog after i finish... maybe...
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| "I dare all that may become a man; who dares more is none."
"I, like god, do play with dice and do not believe in coincidence."
"My father once told me that artists use lies to tell the truth, while politicians use lies to cover them up."
"A revolution without dancing... is a revolution not worth having."
"God is in the rain..."
"Behind this mask is more than flesh... behind this mask is an idea... and ideas are bullet proof."
"People should not be afraid of their governments. governments should be afraid of their people."
V for Vendetta
Power of words and symbols. I am reminded of the third matrix
where neo talks with a program and his family at the train
station.
"...heard a program speak of love?" Neo-"no.. it is a human
emotion." Rama-Kandra-"No. it is a word. what matters is
the connection the word implies. i see that you are in
love. can you tell what you would give to hold onto such a
connection?" Neo-"Anything." Rama-Kandra "The perhaps the reason
that you are here is not so different than the reason i am here."
Anthony- Ba Bam (thats me)
They mention the words love and karma. This is possibly one of my
favorite quote/conversation in the matrix movies. Words are
simply words... words are defined by more words. words are more
words. and that fades away. But the passion of the connection
behind the words something that you can build a strong foundation
upon. Take the word love for an example... in today's society the
word is thrown around so much that the beauty of the connection behind
it is dulled (which i am not saying that it's a bad thing... well maybe
i am...... just pretend like you didnt read this part) and even the
word beauty... is it something a n artist or a poet can only capture in
its purest form? or is beauty perception. I want to strive
to put my focus on reviving words like honor, courage, integrity,
honesty, and one day love... and instead of speaking with more words...
i'd like to speak with connections... bc words fade away and you dont
remember the words that were said (you might in some instances) you
remember the feeling of passion behind them...
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| it's been a while since i have had anything to do with xanga, but
tonight, for some reason, i need some sort of escape for the thoughts
in my head... nothing in paticular, just thoughts... thoughts, wishes,
memories, philosophizings (yes it is too a word!!)... i love movies!!
(well not too big of a fan of love movies or scary movies... but i have
good reasons!!) every movie i watch, i connect with... and by
connect with i mean pretend that i am the main character (dont like
mushy love movies bc they are mushy and dont like scary movies bc the
main characters die)... like batman begins and mos def the x men movies
are good examples... totally still pretend to be batman or
wolverine (maybe a lil exaggerating... maybe not)... and every
guy can relate to these 2 movies... braveheart and gladiator...
both classics... FREEDOM!! such surge of adrenaline that makes
every guy (and some girls) want to put on the kilt and get out the huge
sword that they keep in their closet (am i the only one who does
that)and fight for something good .... in movies you watch a main
character and witness the experiences they go through... thats why sad
movies make people cry and happy ones makes people laugh... its
the relating of yourself to a character and recognizing his/her
experiences as realistic... have you ever watched a movie where
the character is filled with such loneliness... such grief and pain and
sadness has built up to the point where this once blue sky is covered
with grey... this character has nothing to look at, to gaze upon, to
build up his hope that their might be rescue around the corner... i
dont know if this is an actualy movie but i do know that they are
actual people... and we surrounded by them... whether it's people you
go to class with, make eye contact with, people that wrong you...
people live this life like their is no rescue from all the shit that
they have been dealt... everyone can relate to this... practically
being buried alive with things we believe to matter and some of it
might... but who is to decide what matters (expand maybe another
time)... can you feel the brokeness of another human being... thats
what it all comes down to... being broken... having nothing left, after
you have taken all this world has thrown at you... at that point rescue
has come... God. he cant work with you unless you having
nothing left.... again we are surrounded by people with no idea of that
kind of rescue... buried alive... going through life like its normal...
but inside they are screaming bc their once blue sky is completely
covered... they are screaming!! relate to them... only the blind
can lead the blind... Rescue is coming... the heart of the Father
is for his people.
"There's darkness in my skin
My covers wearing thin, i believe
I'd love to start again
and never leave
Dont give up now
A break in the clouds
we could be found
theres nothing wrong with me
it's just that i believe that things could get better
there's nothing wrong with love
i think it's just enought to believe
Rescue is Coming
--- D Crowder Band..... Feel those words....
i know that nobody every reads my xanga anymore... this might be more for me than anyone else...
hi paola ;)
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